gosh darn it with the CHOICES. SO. MANY. FRIGGIN. CHOICES! One the one hand, fabulous, and on the other hand hello! can we say confusing?!
I feel so much better in myself now. Boy was I low for a bit. But now I'm on top of the world. Well ok maybe not quite on top of the world but definitely not fermenting in the depths of despair. Nor being all melodramatic about it. What's the coolest thing that's happened so far?
I TURNED 30!!!!!! And it was the most marvellous birthday ever! I had SOOO many people go to Dublin (Ireland) for me - for ME! - that I was a little bit overwhelmed. These were all my friends. Who were there for me. For lil ole Me! You know when I said that I was so blessed? You have no idea! I have so many blessings I can't count that high :)
And finally after a long time of faffing, I know what I want now. I want to stay here in ye olde Englande for 'nother couple of years. Then I will be going over to Seattle. For sure. In MY time. At MY pace. Yes, yes I know. I've changed my mind more than Homer Simpson changes his underwear but, despite the vacillating, I have arrived at my decision.
It's now ALL about me. JUST me baby!! My life, my career, my future. And now everyone else will be fitting in around that. Well, everyone else apart from my friends and family :)
Boys? Hah! I don't know what the deal is but boys seem to buzzing around me like crazy at the moment. I have no idea why. I haven't been putting any signals out or anything. If anything, there's been a low, menacing growl that quietly emanates from me if anyone with even the mildest level of testosterone stands near me and yet, they've been flocking. Maybe boys just like the whole death wish thing. You know like moths to a flame. Either way there are two things I can definitely guarantee.
1 - I like it but I don't care
2 - There is NO WAY IN HELL that I will, at ANY TIME be tempted to buy that frigging "Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus" claptrap
I did read the most deliciously funny "single woman" book reprinted from the 1920s which tells the single woman to "use the gentleman's chivalry to your advantage. If he wishes to pay completely, let him. You are now in more impoverished circumstances and therefore could do with misplaced alpha male chest-beating". LOL! I loved that and laughed out so loud that people stared at me at Waterstones! I didn't buy it although I think I might.
And I'm going to India for a week for work! I'm LOVING it! I would love to go to Seattle more to build my profile but one step at a time...
